Aurora's Mind

The desert in me

auroramind — Wed, 15 Sep 2010 05:22:31 +0000

What am I worth if I cannot love?
Why do I breathe if I cannot live?
Who am I with my heart so empty?
I was born, live, and will die for love…without love.

I saw a face in a bright room
It looked so young, my charming midnight moon
I saw the man that I would love until I die
I saw the man, but he was blind to me.

I was dry, withering like a weed
I was dying, yet hoping to breathe
I was struggling, grasping for love
I was broken, repairing my soul.

I saw then his face, golden to me
I craved then his lips, tender an sweet
He smiled to me, a fool for a creep
And I fell, but that fool dodged my love.

How many times will I fall to the ground?
How many of these, will I pick myself up?
All I want is some rest now, be rid of my dread
I was a fool to love, as you can see now I’m dead.

All run away my love, all fall away
They will lead yo astray my one
And they will keep you at bay
All must go, but I must stay.

Don’t shut the door, I want a glimpse at least
Don’t promise me home, when you know I have none
I’ll kill yo I swear, not really, I wish
I’ll feel you always, forever engraved.

Cursed be my soul…

Ludwing the Lover

auroramind — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 10:51:21 +0000

Perhaps it was the charm of his eyes,
the temptation of his tender juicy lips,
the way our words played and mingled in erotism.
Perhaps it was all of this which blew my mind,
pumped blood in my veins and made all else disappear.

Ah…the power of lust…only second to that of love,
and oh so deliciously confusable and desirable,
so that even now I see burning images in the back of my lids,
of his naked skin and I feel my body ache with desire.

Could this be sin…that I do so worship his flesh?
That he provokes my body with raging delight?
That I lay awake at night calling unto him as Eros to my chambers?
Indeed, it may very well be nothing but a dream.

My bitter-sweet darling boy, listen to me now,
do not be fooled by the measure of my passion,
you are such a young and lovely fool, believe you me innocent?
I say hard luck has been my home since birth…I am wall of steel,
and all I wanted was your body surrendering to my welcoming love.

So won’t you stay here for a while and cease now to think?
All I have is for you, if you would only smile from the soul.
I know you never met a girl like this before, but don’t you be scared,
this only just a ride, to Pleasantville and back.

Goodbye Wicked William…Your’s, Dorothy Deranged.

auroramind — Thu, 12 Aug 2010 09:51:05 +0000

06:49 .am
October 22d —-
Our Barley Field

I have faced the most fierce battle that ever was wrought upon a mortal,
And I tore at my mind as I burned and bled my flesh.
Do you see the scars I wear on this carcass of mine?
I made them in my madness while you were gone.
But believe me when I say that I fully comprehend,
That it can be hard to accept the veracity of such lunacy.
Never the less, this psychosis is true, it is real, and it is yours.

Now that you see me walking this life in such a way as I do,
Wearing nothing but a shell that lacketh of anything living within,
I stare blankly ahead as I sit in this cubicle confined,
And you know that I am void of all that once made me.
But you cannot be troubled, neither can you reproach me,
For you know that this was all for you, and always will.

From the next breath I take until the last in my dying bed,
I will fear no more, for I will feel no more.
I will take that which pleasures my earthly desires,
And I do no wrong, for my soul is dead, wanting nothing.
Tell me then, what else have I left but my flesh?
If my heart I cannot satisfy, will I not satisfy my body?

Now that I have lost all, I will flourish in my incorrigible nature,
Loosing all that I once held dear I have nothing left to fret about.
I heard it said; perhaps in a song such as I love,
That there is nothing more dangerous that a man with nothing to lose,
Nothing to live for, and nothing to prove.
I am no man, yet a woman can be just as eloquently hazardous.
But be merry my love, don’t you see all this is for you?

Ah yes, I will rise far above any expectations,
I will do it so that once I fall, astonishment will be unavoidable.
I will ensure that my persona as a titan is unquestionable,
Whom then could blame my incompetence for my peril?
All will believe my words then, they will tremble in shame,
Knowing with all certainty they have sinned with utter negligence.
They lacketh love…but ah…how rich are they in greed and pride!

How blind are you and yours to the afflictions of this earth,
How did you heed with meticulous care to mummify your souls.
While the weak and forgotten drop unto death like flies,
You cackle in your wealth with narcissistic self obsession.
And even as the ill in heart and mind increase in populace,
And even though they cry as they reach for your hand,
You walk unawares, set upon the pursuit of un-experienced orgasms.

My dear, I have come to my wit’s end,
Now we shall wait for the grand finale to my mortality.
Do not weep my love, lest you feel my wrath’s power,
I swear unto you I shall tolerate no such petty fanfare,
Both you and I know you have secretly awaited this day,
It has been so since the day you laid eyes on me.
Rest peacefully now, for doom comes to knock at your door on the morrow.

Yahweh

auroramind — Sun, 09 May 2010 22:38:39 +0000

You always asked of me to have faith in thy love for me
And never to doubt you would care for me
Now I ask of thee, my precious
Doubt not my love, the one for thee and thee only

As a child you sat at my side
As a young woman you held my heart
You took it tenderly in your hands
And comforted my soul when I was broken

Many times have I forsaken thee
And many more have ye forgiven me
Always you look upon my face with compassion
When I find myself trapped in another’s gaze

I love thee…
Oh! I do indeed, believe me please!
As time passes and I grow in wisdom
I learn more and more of my passion for thee

Forgive me for I have done wrong
I have taken all that’s good in you
And fled to another’s embrace
I have wronged thee, too deeply I fear

Throughout my seasons I have loved few
But these few I’m afraid did tear me from thee
I was erred in my desires, still am I must admit
But each day I hope for redemption, for thy lovely face

Your eyes, they tell me many things
In them I see the secrets to this world
I can almost touch the heavens you once spoke of
I can sense the most exquisite ecstasies to be sensed

I miss you when I’m gone
I am sorry
I hope you will understand my weakness
Yet as I say these word’s, I know you do

I have been too foolish to deserve thee and thy love
Yet thou hast still given thyself to me without doubt
And I have consistently put myself to shame
But how I do long for thee with all that’s within me

My wonderful man
A ghost of light in the most frightful and darkest of nights
A shelter of soul and heart when I am weak and lost
My savior, My Lord, My God…

Willows in the Sea

auroramind — Fri, 07 May 2010 00:37:07 +0000

Under the surface of a glimmering mirror
Lay vast plains of soothing sands
The deepness is terrifying with it’s darkness
Where hidden creatures pray with their fangs

The middle lands hold endless life
The corals serving as a home to many
Speed reigns as it does in New York
And beauty blesses all who behold

This land where deep down you stand
Is where the precious willow lies
Its slender branches mingling with the flow
They dance as they elongate our delight

Ah…Salix of mine how I love thee indeed
Your green in the blue sends electric waves through my blood
Thy tenacious bark protects what matters most
Tell me, who could deny thee from the sea?

As you stand at their side in the deep
You look up to see rays of light
They make their way down to touch you with warmth
And you feel the willow, it’s holding your hand

Impossible they said, A willow in the sea?
But the osier made it a home for itself
While managing to keep a glory as is theirs
Now who could say that the salix is weak?

So if the willow so sweet
Could make the sea it’s own
Why would I not, and why wouldn’t you
Survive and reign in this world of ours?
No I say, let us be…
Just like the willows in the sea.

Arisen

auroramind — Tue, 04 May 2010 23:55:34 +0000

Do you know dear friend of mine?

auroramind — Sat, 01 May 2010 22:57:39 +0000

What do you do when all have failed you?
When every time you look into someones eyes
You are reminded of the deepness they do not have?
For none other could reflect their soul the way the old love has.

I do not posses the answer to this interrogative
And as I lay in bed at night this thought becomes a thief to my slumber
But if ever you find the answer, would you satisfy my minds turmoil?
I tell you, no other deed could be more merciful than this.

I ask you my friend, with passionate desperation
What am I to do, now that I have been stripped of my heart´s contents?
Yet I do manage to smile, and attempt to reflect a merry soul
I do not know why, and if you think otherwise state it so.

You must think me ridiculous, and I think just the same
But, ridiculous is all I can be for now, so judge me not
I know my friend, that this time shall pass
Whether it provides me the answer, or lets me to live with this mess.

I felt this way once upon a time, not supp to be cool kk?

auroramind — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 01:22:11 +0000

She walks on the verge of death. But apparently that is not important at all. All else is, all they want, but not her life. Definitely not.
Every breath she takes is a longing desire for death. She keeps a knife under her pillow, just in case she can’t take it anymore sometime during the night. Or maybe, just to remind her that she has the power at least over one thing. But all of this does not matter, only work and money, that’s all.

So she took one step forward, her feet firm on the ground, she felt the cool metal under her strong grip. She pulled the trigger. They all lay dead. She feels no remorse, she feels nothing. They took it all, that’s the way they wanted it, and so their blood is on their own hands. She blinks, turns around and walks away. A ghost in the bright of the day. Carcasses left under the sun. Now they care, she thinks, maybe not. It doesn’t matter, nothing does. She’s already dead.

Silence

auroramind — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 00:58:06 +0000

Ah! My love….
Do you hear the emptiness in the atmosphere?
Do you feel the absolute numbness of your senses?
There is a silence in the air, one that will not go away…

Ah…my love,
Who have we become now that death has come and prevailed?
Death…not to our flesh but to our soul, do you understand my love?
Our homes are empty and silence is here to stay….

My love, listen…
Will the soft air seeping through the cracks of our chamber sustain us?
Is the tinkling sound of diamonds of dust nothing but our maddened imagination?
It’s impossible, for in our worlds there is nothing but silence…

My love…
Everyone is gone now, have you become aware of this?
It’s you and I now, but, why are we alone?
Oh…I am so weary of this torturing silence…

Silence…
Why are we chained to the solitude of our empty homes?
What did we provoke for you to persecute us thus?
Ah! My love…my love…

Shh…

New begining

auroramind — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 00:30:44 +0000

I’m standing in the middle of the field,it’s dark, there’s no moon. I turn my head up. My eyes are closed so I open them. The stars in the raven sky are abundant and bright. The light from the nearby shack goes on and wish it would blow. I like the dark, it’s peaceful. I turn my eyes once again to the stars. My mind and body are weak from the strain I have undergone, I sway and gasp for air. I fall on my knees and put my hands to my throat-a reflex, my chest is tight and my eyes sting. The wind blows and whistles, it feels like it comes directly from both poles. I cannot fight back anymore and a tear burns down my cheek. I wipe it away with rage and get back on my feet. I take a deep breath and yell to the four winds: “I am Aurora, I am fearless, I am unbreakable, I am a mighty warrior that prowls this world, I am not ashamed of who I am, and you cannot defeat me!” And I know that not one living soul has failed to hear my cry. My judges and enemies waver, they know I am not weak, they know I will fight to the death. My appearance shifts, i am no longer human, but a cat like beast. I give a mighty roar that makes them tremble. My eyes are like fresh coal and I know that no mortal soul can withstand my stare, for it reaches down to the depths of their beings and rips open their blackest secret. I will no longer be defiled, they have enraged the beast in me and I will have no mercy. So I sprint forward, going on with full speed and might, and so shall I do until my heart fails me once more.